A First and a Last

It is mind boggling how much grief I got over wanting to trim Livi's hair. Her hair was starting to look unkept and disheveled and I decided to have it a little shaped and organized. I'm surprised there weren't picketers outside my house with "DON'T CUT HAIR...IT'S NOT FAIR" signs. Ridiculous. What's the big deal about cutting a babies hair....I don't get it.

I promplty ignored everyone's pleas.....like the free spirit I am and always will be....and off to the hair dresser we went, for her first hair cut!! She did amazingly well! Her stylist, Kiara, was beyond fantastic....already knowing what to do with her hair before I said a word. Livi was engaged in her toys and barely noticed her locks being clipped and it took what seemed like seconds. WOILA!!

What a little star she was!

We also went to Mom and Baby yoga to try a class....at the same place and same instuctor as my prenatal yoga. Boy am I glad I went. I almost didn't for a few reasons...going in the winter being one of them...it's not a cheap class either...and Livi does not do well being awake for more than one hour and it's a long class. But....we both really enjoyed it. She did get sleepy....after laughing her head off at the instructor...it was histarical....so she rolled over on the blanket and tried to sleep. She tried to nap on a blanket but it didn't work so she just got back into the class...which included massage for her at the end....her favorite part.

And as for what the "last" part of this post is....not a light topic....so I'll make it light and short. I had to dig my work computer out and download what I wanted to keep because it's going back for good....and I'm not. I watched it shutdown for the last time tonight, after almost 6 years of loving my time there. After a major downsize of head office and field force, I am no longer with my company (yes, they can do that) I did know cuts were coming, and secretly hoped it would be me to buy me more time at home with Livi with my severance, and open the door to other possibilities. There was one thing that never occured to me during this secret longing.....I woundn't have a job!! and my extra time with Livi would be laced with worry and looking for work. It was a difficult week but I went through the stages of grief fairly quickly. I see things a little clearer now. I am not letting my time with Livi be tainted by this, and not putting pressure on myself to re-invent myself now and find that new carreer I always wanted. This isn't the time. The goal is to get back to work around the same time I would have (April)......in a similar job to what I was doing. I would love another summer with Livi, but panic might start to set in by then. Get back into the biz, something comfortable and familiar for being-a-new-mom's sake....and spread my wings from there. I wanted to mention this here because I don't want to talk about it with those of you who I am in touch with. I have found peace and joy with this sudden change in plans....and have faith that what I've always wanted for my career is just around the corner. In any case, my family is first. Stef is being very supportive and Livi is just laughing about it all. I think I'll join her.