For once and for all

A little update, and with some extra detail for my non-IVF followers, as I've had some questions lately.

I leave for Denver on Wednesday, March 30th.
This is a trip only to take my eggs out, which happens on April 6th. Once they do that, I go home. They fertilize and grow them for 5 days. They cannot live past day 5 outside the body so they freeze them. Before they freeze them though, they take out one cell from each of them to run a chromosomal test on, to see if there are any genetic abnormalities. Those that are normal will be ready for a transfer back to my womb once I come back yet again. That will not be till sometime in the summer. I am excited to leave and get settled over there. Stef is joining me the night before the egg retrieval.

Here is the small print, and also important to understand. There are no guarantees here. At every stage of all this, there could be happiness or despair. I hope we end up with at least one or two normal 'blastocyst' (that's what they are called on day 5). That may not happen. I don't want to think or even write about the worst, but it is a possibility and it happens. I have to have faith in what is meant to be. My fate/destiny beliefs will have to engage hard here, because by middle of April, we will know how our little guys did over there. For now, I'll quietly take my 4 injections a day, pop my handful of herbs and pills, and wisper to the eggs that are about to dance for their life, that this isn't a dress rehearsal. But I'll be happy to take you to one in about 5 years.