To Livi, at 6 months

You turned 6 moths on Friday and we took you out to Montana's where mommy and daddy thoroughly enjoyed a burger and fries and you nibbled on mashed potatoes. We took your stroller in so you could chill out. You did just that, listening to your playlist on mommy's iPad and checking out every detail in the ceiling. They do have a crazy ceiling. You were a super cute hit in your Hilfiger Jeans. Check out your little butt in this outfit, compiments of Grandpa.

What Mommy and Daddy can't get enough of at 6 months:

- Your affection.....you love to be touched, stroked, massaged and you even reach out to hold my hand and to pet me back which blows my mind....and I melt
- Your smile and funny sounding laugh when you get excited. We love how you flail your arms when you get excited...which is often....especially when you see daddy, and especially when he attends your baths. You flail your arms so hard into your belly, I worry you will bruise.
- You started on solids after your 5th month birthday and so far love eating everything! Even spinach!
- You fall asleep by yourself with absolutely no sleep training! you have found a way to self sooth and it's taken some time to work and to practice it but I can put you in your crib and walk away....what a relief and joy that is for both you and I.
- Your intence focus and love of detail is fascinating. You will stare at paintings, ceiling vents and fans, and odd objects that stand out. The part about a toy that interest you the most is the little tag sticking out or a thread that has come lose. We love watching your tiny little fingers intertwine with what you're twiddling.
- You reach for absolutely everything and must have it. And then your gums must have it. Your greatest interest of course is my BlackBerry and the house phone. The second you got a hold of my cell you speed-dialed grandma. She thought that was pretty cool.
- You are an easy going baby while making your needs and wishes very clear. We are never guessing what it is you want. Especially the time you hit my friend because she wouldn't share her strawberry....your favorite. Your communication is unmistakable and your happiness busts our hearts.
- You can stand on your own while holding you for balance for a long time now....so proud of you! You are trying to sit up ALL the time, eventhough you don't have complete control once up. But we work on it in your Bumbo (yes, the safe one) and in your make shift living room while watching Baby Einstein (Josey, I thought your pic was so hilarious, that I had to get one)

 Livi, you are the life and joy of our days.

 I call you my angel everyday because I truly believe you are one 

We couldn't have asked for a more beautiful little girl, in every way

 We love how astute and focused you are. You love fine detail, are always looking around to see new things. If you're not smiling, you're deep in thought.

 And you're putting mommy to shame in the photogenic arena....that's for sure!

A First and a Last

It is mind boggling how much grief I got over wanting to trim Livi's hair. Her hair was starting to look unkept and disheveled and I decided to have it a little shaped and organized. I'm surprised there weren't picketers outside my house with "DON'T CUT HAIR...IT'S NOT FAIR" signs. Ridiculous. What's the big deal about cutting a babies hair....I don't get it.

I promplty ignored everyone's pleas.....like the free spirit I am and always will be....and off to the hair dresser we went, for her first hair cut!! She did amazingly well! Her stylist, Kiara, was beyond fantastic....already knowing what to do with her hair before I said a word. Livi was engaged in her toys and barely noticed her locks being clipped and it took what seemed like seconds. WOILA!!

What a little star she was!

We also went to Mom and Baby yoga to try a class....at the same place and same instuctor as my prenatal yoga. Boy am I glad I went. I almost didn't for a few reasons...going in the winter being one of them...it's not a cheap class either...and Livi does not do well being awake for more than one hour and it's a long class. But....we both really enjoyed it. She did get sleepy....after laughing her head off at the instructor...it was histarical....so she rolled over on the blanket and tried to sleep. She tried to nap on a blanket but it didn't work so she just got back into the class...which included massage for her at the end....her favorite part.

And as for what the "last" part of this post is....not a light topic....so I'll make it light and short. I had to dig my work computer out and download what I wanted to keep because it's going back for good....and I'm not. I watched it shutdown for the last time tonight, after almost 6 years of loving my time there. After a major downsize of head office and field force, I am no longer with my company (yes, they can do that) I did know cuts were coming, and secretly hoped it would be me to buy me more time at home with Livi with my severance, and open the door to other possibilities. There was one thing that never occured to me during this secret longing.....I woundn't have a job!! and my extra time with Livi would be laced with worry and looking for work. It was a difficult week but I went through the stages of grief fairly quickly. I see things a little clearer now. I am not letting my time with Livi be tainted by this, and not putting pressure on myself to re-invent myself now and find that new carreer I always wanted. This isn't the time. The goal is to get back to work around the same time I would have (April)......in a similar job to what I was doing. I would love another summer with Livi, but panic might start to set in by then. Get back into the biz, something comfortable and familiar for being-a-new-mom's sake....and spread my wings from there. I wanted to mention this here because I don't want to talk about it with those of you who I am in touch with. I have found peace and joy with this sudden change in plans....and have faith that what I've always wanted for my career is just around the corner. In any case, my family is first. Stef is being very supportive and Livi is just laughing about it all. I think I'll join her.

This one time.....at boat camp....

OK, so there was no boat camp for Livi, but there was boating and camping....along with some other excitement in her 5th month. (She is 5 months next Wednesday)

What I love about the 4th month:
- She reaches for things like they are all chocolate cake after not eating anything for 3 days
- She yelps, screaches, sings, and aaahhhhs like her voice is the most amazing thing she's discoverd (it is ooober cute)
- She loves to sit up and tries all the time....she can sit up from leaning forward, but no side control yet
- She learned to roll over from her tummy to her back finally....just when it looked like she never would....and the cutest thing is how she does it....she puts her arm back and tilts her head back and hopes gravity takes over....I swear she lingers there for a minute sometimes squeeling....OMG I can burst
- Her awareness of me and others is adult like....from smiles, laughter and simply watching what you're doing and wanting what ever you have in your hand
- Sharing my food....not formally introduced to solids yet, but I let her taste things on my finger....she loves everything
- She shows affection in her own sweet little way
 - AND FOR THE BEST PART......SHE FALLS ASLEEP ON HER OWN!!!

Some firsts for Livi:

Modeling for Gucci:

OK not Gucci....just me....but OMG I love that picture.

Her first Olympics were a nail biter:

Her first boat ride on mommy and daddies new boat was fun! she slept the whole time, until we docked...here she is under Grandpas's watchful eye in her cabana:

And she was a happy camper on her first camping trip....even figured out how to pull the pull toys...OMG that was hilarious....

She loved sitting around the fire and telling ghost stories. Literally. The sounds she was making would have complimented the best hair raisers. And we did lots of her favorite activity....looking up at the trees. This trip was also a turning point in Livi learning to fall asleep on her own, whithout any giggling, rocking, strolling, bouncing...ect. She was about to sleep on the mattress in the motorhome....and this mattress was foam and no spring for us to bounce her to sleep, so we tugged at the blanket she was laying on. That actually worked. By the end of the trip, I had placed her in ther tent so we could pack up and when I looked over again, she was sound asleep.

Mark today, August 30th...as day I had hoped and dreamed of in her sleep training. I put her in her crib for a nap and walked away. I checked on her a few minutes later and she was sleeping. I had no idea what that was like until now, and am so happy to not have had to force her with Ferber or similar crying methods. It is still a work in progress but our camping trip was a turning point and she did it by herself. I am so proud of her and a little ticked at myself for having put sooooo much pressure and stress on myself about how I'm going to train her. And I regret the stress I had put on her during a few naps when I was trying to train her. Apparently.....I need to learn to give her more credit. At 5 months, she has nothing short of blown our mind. This little tiny person can express so much with no words, has so much love in her little heart and is smarter than I could have ever imagined.....already she is teaching me a few things. "We'll figure it out mom....just have some patience...and trust me".

Pictures and Sleep Teaching

Sorry about not writing for so long...but July has been amazing and busy. Livi's Baptism was beautiful, with her Godmother and Father and their daughter coming from another Province, along with my Dad being here. The ceremony was like a little wedding, and the lunch was held at the classiest place in town. We truly loved it. That weekend was followed by my Sister in Law and niece staying with us for a week.....they were on their way to my parents' place (7 hours away from me) from Utah, and decided to make the 7 hour detour to come stay with us and meet Livi. It was wonderful to have them here...and of course, they adored her. A week later, they drove to my parents', and I flew there, to meet up with my brother who also drove up from Utah, but in a separate vehicle than his wife. That is a long but good story. So we had a mini family reunion (which is rare with my brother in Utah and me in the next province). I loved it very much. Livi was awesome on the plane....and thanks to everyone who gave tip and advice. It all worked out beautifully. When I check in to Westjet, I told them I was flying with her for the first time. They locked the two seats next to me so I would have the whole row to myself. AMAZING. I teared up when the lady did that. So Livi licked apple juice off my finger on the way up (she doesn't always take a bottle and never a soother), slept once we levelled out, woke up on descent and nursed on the way down. On the trip home, she latched on at take off, and feel asleep that way, nursing lightly in her sleep until landing and still sleeping until the elevator ride to meet Stef. Everyone helped with the stroller and settling me in. People and staff on planes are amazing when they see you with a baby. It's really cool. Here are some picture perfect moments:

Olivia's Baptismal dress and picture (how amazing is she) and yours truly took the picture. I taught hubby all he knows behind a camera :)

Posing for pictures on her special day

One with a smile too...

Mom and Dad

She slept through the whole ceremony, being rocked in my arms. Then was quite the model afterwards, during pictues. The personalized bracelett was given to her by our very own Jen from Jelly's Bean (who is now in her 2ww post transfer at CCRM.....praying for you my dear!)

While her Godparents and my dad were here, we went for a family walk around the lake. Her first time seeing geese....aaaawww  

First time flying....she's already a pro:

Meeting my birds at Grandma's house....the parrot was afraid of her and the lovebird wanted her toys....which is no suprise. He has 258 of his own, and it's not enough:

One of my friends that I used to Irish Dance with gave Livi her first pair of Irish Dancing soft shoes. Actually from Ireland, and an EXACT miniaure replica of the real thing. Padding and all. Now...she has NEVER noticed her feet, or even looked at them no matter what cool socks or shoes I had put on. Until now. Did I mention that she will be a dancer?

We went to a wedding at a lake front property at a dear friend's place. Livi upstaged the bride I'm afraid.... and she did AMAZING for a muggy, 30 degree C outdoor wedding with tonnes of strangers oogling her. Saw her first fireworks too!

Her laugh and smile continue to bust my heart at the seams......this one is for Grandpa, who lives for spending time with her:
 

 
July has been filled with joyful milestones. Full head control has made caring for her and interacting with her so much easier and safer. The first time she used her head to look up made me squeal with joy and laughter....especially when it was at a mirror above her swing. We live in a neighbourhood where the trees are so large, they canopy and touch above the street. She spends our walks looking up at them. Beautiful. The use of her hands and feet have completely floored me. She stomps my chest and face (on purpose) when I hover over her, plants her hands on my face when I kiss her, says "aaaahhhhh" back and forth with us, holds and pulls things to her face and mouth, and the most recent and endearing.....lets go of whatever she's holding to grab my hand, should it be nearby. Drop tear here.

And then there's sleep training. I call it sleep teaching, because that's what I intend on doing. I don't have a concern about Livi sleeping through the night, which all sleep training methods target. My concern is her being able to fall asleep without motion. We had to provide soothing motion of some sort for her so far because it provided a distraction from her belly pains so she could fall asleep. Now that's past and it's time to think about how to have her fall asleep without motion. I have researched and soul searched sleep training to a great extent and long into the night.....and is the reason I have not blogged all month. I've talked to everyone I know (Lisa....I even re-read your blogs from training L in January) and have come to a conclusion. Crying it out is not an option for us....especially after trying it for a nap once. Not doing it. But, if she is not taught how to drift off without motion by 6 months, we will have no choice. So I have agonized over how I'm going to teach her. I did not have a concrete plan until today. It is a method I created and got the idea for out of the blue, while strolling her to sleep at Chapter's Book store today. Stef sat in the nursery with me while I tried it for the first time today, at nap time. It worked. But it was the first time, and is a method that may or may not have progress....which is the key in any sleep training method. But it actually provides the opportunity for her to teach herself to fall asleep, without being left to cry. I will be happy to share details should it succeed......for a price.... MMUUUUAAAHHHAAAA.

LOL

Hold up your favorite summer beverage.....Here's to Livi......for a beautiful July and an August filled with lots of sunshine, tree filled walks, friends and family who love her, more awesome milestones, and beauty sleep on her terms, with no tears.

Three months and a family photo

Happy 3 months Livi!!

She's very vocal and wanting to talk (which is beyond marvelous and has be in tears every time) and I think she's teeting already (much drool, hand sucking, extra fussyness at night)

We are taking our first flight to see my brother next week! So packing for me will be much less stressfull (I hate packing almost as much as unpacking) when compared to packing for her. I hope all goes well for the flight. I've asked for lots of advice and got good pointers. If you have any to add, that would be great.

And on the eve of her 3rd month birthday, is actually the SECOND family photo we have...the first one being in the OR the day she was born. Hubby prefers the other side of the camera. Why...I don't know. He's such a cutie.

Her baptism is this Sunday....so will post pictures of the little princess soon!

12 weeks and pictures

Tomorrow marks 12 weeks, or 84 of the best days of my life. I honestly think my heart is going to bust at times....and I tell Livi that when she talks to me with those smiling, flirty eyes of hers. It's hard to believe, but she actually tries to form words, manupulating her tongue and mouth different parts of the alphabet, and they mean something to her becuase there is communicative expression in her eyes. She has a sweet smile and giggle for me all through the day and returns a smile from others.

Well on her way to 13 lbs, she is in the 80% procentile and wearing 6 month sleepers and clothes. Wow! mama's got milk! Not bad for a 40 year old chick....almost 41...yikes. As for me, I've officially lost 30 lbs since the morning of her birth, and am 5 lbs away from the weight I was then I got pregnant....which was still 10 over my usual...so 15 lbs to go to be where I usually am...or at least battle to be at all times.

So.....the time has come to unveil my gift from Stef to commemorate Livi's arrival in our family and all we went through to have her. I wanted a sapphire as a symbol of her blue eyes. A nontreated 1.1 carat, VVS2, perfect color, from the Natural Sapphire Company in New York. It is Olivia's heirloom. It syblolizes our journey.

Next Sunday is her Baptism, with over 50 guests attending, and her Godmother and my oldest friend and her family coming  from Alberta to meet Livi and be here, as well as friends from the States. We couldn't be more thrilled to get our family and friends together like this for this occasion. I will post pictures of that as well. In the mean time, here are the highlights from her third month:

                                                  Apparently, also a bird lover....yes!

Is it bed time already? How do you like my fancy jammies?

Heart throb!

Need I say more? (and obviously a lefty....another yes!)

I have a suprise for youuuuuu!

8week upd8...it's gr8!!

Houston....we have sleeping through the night!! well, almost...we would have if I didn't make sure she was breathing at 5 am and woke her up. Just like the book "Baby Wise" says, she will drop a night feeding at week 8 if you follow their regime...and.... Viola! I am still curious if she would have made it to her 7:30am feeding if I didn't stand there like a stunned mule staring at her. She could just feel it too...she sighed in her sleep, knowing my presence....and then...wakefullness.

"Mosaic" is a cultural event here, where for one weekend every year, all the national clubs rent a venue or open up their own venue to the public, with food, crafts, events and entertainment according to their culture. There are buses running between them, all around the city, and almost every citizen takes it in. We dressed up our little princess last night and took her to the Irish Pavillion, where I danced for 8 years. I'm not Irish, but I had to learn that style of dance - it's a total rush. I last danced there two years ago, and miss it remendously. You can't beat 4 seasoned dancers meeting every Saturday morning, coffee in hand, in a sunlit dance hall the size of an airplan hanger, hashing out "Lord of the Dance" type music and steps. We created many of our own dances and preformed them. We couldn't keep the group going, but it was the best time of my 'dancing' life. Here is a shot from a performance, 6 (OMG) years ago.

Anyways, we had Livi there last night, all decked out in a white denim skirt and silver sandals and ran into so many people we knew, dancers and friends alike. It was so much fun to get out and show her off. I even had an IVF chat with a lady I used to dance with. Turns out she got my blog from a mutual friend and has been following. She is going to the Seattle clinic this summer. Good luck B! It was a great night of running into old friends and reliving old memories. All the way there, I kept telling Livi that someday she'll come to watch mommy dance. I hope that's true.

At our 8 week check up at the doctor, we got the low-down. She has gained 4 lbs and grown 3 inches since she was born. Turns out she's in the 70% percentile for weight and the 75% for length. No wonder she's already outgrown her 3 MONTH jammies! 75% of the kids in this world are shorter than her! and other than my dad, there are no height genes in the family, so it's very interesting. Anyways, all this growing has her tuckered out at the most hilarious times.
Here she is, in the midst of introducing herself to Mr. Sunny Lion

And her doctor asked if she's smiling yet. Well, you be the judge: